Itx alrdy been 2yrs.... Still can't believe we made it thru thick and thin together and we managed tu stay strong... Although at times I felt like giving it all up, I still endure and patiently waited fer this day tu come.. But, I still been wondering if u really, really feel what I feel about u.. I know u've told me before but i dun seem tu be convinced.. It's what u do that makes me feel curious.. Sometimes, I also see that there's no point of us being together "officially" cause it does not even make a difference. We rarely meet up and we always communicate thru phne and seldom talk in the afternoon. Itx like our "relationship" is only active during the night. I want everyone tu know that i'm yours and i'm the only one in your life. U have ALOT of gal frens and I dun want tu make a big "whuha" about it but I'm jealous.. I duno why but I just feel that way.. I tried soo hard tu communicate with ur frens but we are different from each other. I juz felt uncomfortable and awkward.. Can't u understand what I feel?? I simply duno how tu describe the way I am feeling ritenw.. Itx a mixture of sadness, happiness, loneliness, confusion and despair.... Times when i'm angry with u or i'm pissed off at u, I juz duno how tu express my unhappiness tu u.. I juz swallow it and forget about it.. At times when I couldn't take it anymore, I would juz let it all out (tu myself) and cry.... I know u also have bring ALOT of happiness in my life.. That, I could not deny.. I will never forget all the swit and beautiful memories we had together.. U make me smile and smile... U simply make my day brighter... But now, itx gloomly cause itx like u are never there.. Ur presence is not here.. I could not sense it..
Ichan... I really, really truly do love u from the bottom of my heart.. Even if I said that i HATED u, i did not actually meant if. I said it because u hurt my feelings or made me sad...