Monday, September 29, 2008 ♥
♥ 12:55 AM
hais.. suddenly felt like blogging.. just wana express what i am feeling ritenw. i am angry and frustrated. i duno why and duno who am i frustrated with. i have no mood to talk either. darn it!
dun tell me it's about the thing that he told me yesterday about what he had experience in the past with her?? NOOO!! couldn't be. i'm not jealous or anything. i'm not mad. i just can't stop thinking about it. i know it's in the past and he loves me. but the fact that they alrdy had done stuffs that i wanted to do with him first makes me jealous of her. u can't imagine how long i wanted for the moment to come. ugh! what's wrong with me? i shouldn't feel this way. it's not right. it's STUPID. yea. ugh! i'm just being foolish.. oh fcuk... sometimes i feel he doesn't deserve me. i'm not good enough for him. it's not that i'm not a good person but sometimes i think that i simply can't grant the things that he wants. like for instance, i can't tell him what i really feel. i mean, sometimes i wanted to but somehow i keep holding it back. i hate that i can't tell him everything. not that i would lie, i would just keep it to myself and suffer the burden on my own. even to shika i dun tell her everything. i dun think it's necessary. i hate to see the people that i care so much feel sad for my misery.
i'm trying to change for the better. for the sake of him.. but pls give me time.. it takes time for me to adjust to these changes. alot of things are going thru my mind right now.. haiyo... why must i go through this ordeal? i can't seem to understand myself. i keep denying what i am feeling. ugh! my ego has gotten the better of me. sad to know that i have been lying to myself everyday. i wun admit if i am feeling down, i wud put up a fake smile. no one really knows if i'm upset or not coz there's always a smile on my face whenever u see me. is there something wrong with me? nothing seems to be always right. i need to rediscover the real me.
Labels: let it all out....
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Ichan is her lover.
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CCY Clans
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