Wednesday, October 15, 2008 ♥
♥ 12:44 AM
I think she hates me. i juz wana say sorry for what had happened yesterday afternoon. i should not have reacted that way. i know no matter how much i say sorry, she would not care for me. she would just ignore me. i hate it when we fight. ugh! it's all my fault. i should not have LIED! stupid me! i dun know why in the first place i did not tell her the truth. i wanted to cry out loud to her and beg for her forgiveness but i dun think she would even cared to listen to what i have to say. indeed, i am sad. i feel really bad. she says i cared more about my friends more than my own family. is it true? i hate to admit it but i have to agree. moveover when i look back, i am being someone who i am not. i never really talked back at her rudely and harshly in the manner like as if i was picking a fight with her. yesterday, it was like the first time we had a "real" argument. i feel like a bad person. a horrible human being. i just realised that everything that i wanted,she would grant it for me. she cares and trust me but i abused her kindness. i took advantage of her. (oh no, my eyes are getting watery..) i am really, really sorry dear big sister. i have let you down yet again. i never seem to learn my lesson. i am not a good sister. i never was. the last word you said to me was "i don't give a damn". at that point of time i did not really cared. all i cared was to go out and meet him. but when i think back, i felt guilty. i should have said nicely to her and told the TRUTH. i have alrdy told her the purpose of me going out but only thru message. she didnt replied back. when she was leaving for work jus now, i didnt even get to salam and say goodbye to her. i know she wun even want to look at me. i have nothing to say anymore. just hoping that we coukd get along like we used to.
and to shika, dun be sad. that person doesnt worth your tears.
and lastly to ichan, i really enjoyed spending my day with you.
Labels: mixed emotions running thru my mind.
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Ichan is her lover.
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The name Iqa is known to most people.
One year older on every October 28th!
Ichan is her lover.
A very random & hyper girl who
is a CrazyLover of Ben 10 ♥
Music is definitely part of her.
Shopping is her hobby.
Just a click away to visit me (:
MSN
Friendster
Tagged
Twitter Updates
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Girlfriends
is what she adores most.
They are her SuperBitches.
The Twilight Saga
vampires & werewolves stuffs makes her go crazy.
Reading & blogging
are part of her favourites.
Shopping sprees
with her girlfriends are times when they
can crap together.
Camwhoring
When she's out with her SuperBitches or
practically with anyone.
CCY Clans
are the beloved families of hers.
Chocolates
is her choice of candies.
Life is about chocolate & more chocolate! (:
Music Lover
Can't live without music.
Coffee & Vanilla Coke
are her choice of favourite drinks.
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