Wednesday, February 18, 2009 ♥
♥ 4:48 AM
i'm hurting right now.
every single day, every single minute.
i may seem okay physically but i'm emotionally unstable inside.
i cried most of the time.
my anger for you turned into tears that i cried everday.
i cried when i'm thinking of you.
i cried when i hear our song.
i cried when i'm talking to you.
and i cried myself to sleep.
sometimes i wonder if you think of me when you're happy.
sometimes i wonder if you know that i am constantly thinking of you.
sometimes i wonder if you really miss me not being there with you.
i'm paranoid, i know.
i simply just can't trust you like last time.
i simply just can't act like nothing had happened.
i simply just can't let go and forget after what happened.
i simply just can't go back like we used to be in the past and pretend that everything is okay.
you may or may not understand what i felt all this while.
but do you know what i've gone thru?
i've suffered in silence.
i never really told you what i felt.
i don't want anything bad to happen.
but, i was mistaken.
it turned out otherwise.
instead, it got worse.
i should have spoken up for myself and told you what i really feel.
i thought you could figure me out but...
i don't blame you, i should have known better.
you know, sometimes i feel like screaming my lungs out without caring what others think of me.
i feel like running a thousand miles and forget everything.
yet, i still endured.
god knows how i truly feel.
whatever it is, i will still support you in what you're doing now and i'm proud that finally you have something worthwhile to do in your life.
sorry if my post is kinda emo.
not that it is but i'm just pouring out my feelings.
and know what?
i feel better already.
take care(:
Labels: will this ever end?
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