morning. well, just like any other day. sleepless nights. GREAT! i didnt even realise it was past 5am when shika pass me the lappy. i was reading New Moon and minding my own business. the time passed soo fast. anyways, i'm glad that raudha texted me just now. me and shika went to meet her at our block. then syu joined us shortly after. it was fun. we laughed, gossiped. hahaha. it's been like, ages since we last met. yea, i really miss school days. the fun and crazy time we shared together as a whole group. laughing like nobody's business. making fun of people we don't know. getting scolded by teachers when we were talking or eating in class.
later today i'm going to ite clementi to meet hakhim's teacher. somesort like an interview. i really hope to get a school. oh boy. that worries me, not able to know my chances of getting a school. there is like no hope for me to get even into ite. as long as there is a place for me to study,i'm fine with it. i know, i have a choice of repeating. but, i don't want to. i have my own reasons why.
my mood swings are getting bad to worse. it's not noticeable. but, my mood swings are really annoying me only if i'm with this one particular person. i don't know why i am like trying to avoid that person. and when i talk to that person on the phone, i will have no mood and i would sound like something's bothering me. i don't know what triggered it. i suppose it will go away soon.
i feel like i'm being very naive. about what? everything i guess. am i that unpredictable? even with all the hints that i gave you? i can't always tell you what is wrong all the time. i want you to figure it out yourself. i want you to know where you've gone wrong. pls understand me. if you don't, then don't bother trying to figure me out. i feel so small and alone.