Wednesday, March 11, 2009 ♥
♥ 3:58 AM
i'm privatising my blog for a while.
i don't even know why and for how long.
just feel that it's no use for me to open my blog publicly if no one is gg to read.
i'm having mood swings right now.
and i'm thinking negatively.
i hate that.
i wanted to be a positive person.
life is indeed unpredictable.
many people agrees to that statement.
and life is also isn't fair.
i know that is part and parcel of ones life.
death is peaceful, easy. but life is harder.
right now, i gg thru the pace of life where i'm lost.
i have no direction and no purpose in my life.
i'm feeling a little bit weird with myself.
i know i am not crazy.
i'm still sane.
there are some questions with myself that i don't have the answer.
i'm still trying to find myself.
what i want in life, what i need and so on.
i need to do some soul searching.
but i have no idea how.
i know somewhere deep down inside of me, there's another side of me wanting to come out.
and somewhere inside my heart, there's something missing but i just can't figure out what it is.
sometimes i wish to be comfortable in my own skin, to be myself and not pretend to be somebody i am not.
not that i always pretend to be somebody else, just that i tend to be somebody else when i feel intimated.
i admit that i have a very low self esteem.
and very low confidence in myself.
okay, i'd have to say that i'm having issues with myself.
stupid isn't it?
i think so too.
dang it!
do you think i'm suffering from anything?
chronic insomnia maybe?
i don't know.
i've been hurting myself more often than you'll ever know.
i can't resist the temptation of not hurting myself.
it's like an addiction.
okay, it may sound daft but i kinda like it.
i know, self-inflicting is very bad.
but, i can't help it.
do i need help?
i don't think so.
i can and will control myself.
i do not hurt myself for no reason.
i am very very paranoid.
i get jealous very very easily.
sometimes i get jealous for no reason.
sigh.
i've been thinking some thoughts that are erm, i don't have the word for it.
i know if they find out what i have been thinking lately, i'm sure gg to get hell from them.
sometimes i feel that i have no reason to live.
oh well, i think i'm gg to stop here.
right here. right now.
ok byeee.
p/s:mylifejustsucks.
Labels: i'm very silly aren't i?
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One year older on every October 28th!
Ichan is her lover.
A very random & hyper girl who
is a CrazyLover of Ben 10 ♥
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Shopping is her hobby.
Just a click away to visit me (:
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with her girlfriends are times when they
can crap together.
Camwhoring
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practically with anyone.
CCY Clans
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