i am still very much awake. i had too much coffee to drink. boyfriend was angry at me for drinking coffee cause he knows that i won't be sleeping. oh well, it's my routine of life alrdy. i have the habit to drink coffee whenever i want to. okay whatever, i'm just bored. i don't know what to blog about. about school? it just giving me headaches. i don't know what to do about it alrdy. i'm sick and tired of waiting. nonetheless, i won't give up.
i feel envious of my friends who are schooling now. i can't go out cause i have nobody to go out with. all of them will be busy with their school projects. whilst me, slacking at home. I HAVE NO LIFE. it's so frustrating. i am jealous with the people arnd me, making new friends. doing projects together with them. they get to meet them everyday. especially boyfriend. i feel jealous towards your classmates cause they get to spend time together with you. regardless if it's just school work. they got to do the things that you do. they have the same things in common as you do.
okay, enough of this. next topic, plans for this week! well, at least something to look forward to. today - will be meeting the babes at lot 1. tmr - will be accompanying mum to johor cause she wanna go for a massage. sat - no plans, yet. sun - going over to cik pai's house and might be meeting love for a while. and then what? life's a waste. what am i going to do about this life of mine?? somebody pls help me. i wanna have a normal life. not like this. this is not the life i wanted. i know it's up to me to decide how to lead my life but i could not lead it by myself. i knowi need help but i'm too proud to ask for help. blergh. atiqah, stop wasting your precious time. it's too late to turn back and regret and wished that you could do something to avoid this to happen. it's alrdy happened.